So most of my creative efforts lately have been focused on Christmas and a certain someone's birthday which happens to be just shortly after Christmas. And I find myself faced with the trouble of trying to keep focused.

There's one project in particular I'm having trouble with, because its not quite like anything I've ever done before. It's also something very important to me, but no matter how determined I am to see it's completion, I can't seem to muster that determination while working on it. At least, not for very long.

There's a lot of factors I can think of that might explain it, but I think the biggest one is confidence. When I can't figure out how to do something right, it becomes so frustrating and I just don't want to deal with it. And I'm simply too afraid of failing to try and push through it, even if it's not perfect. I guess I'd rather do nothing than do something wrong, but I don't care for that attitude at all.

Blarg. I thought this time of year was supposed to make you happy :/